Vacation

After spending a week, or four days, in Bay Furnace I feel closer to God, but I don't really know why. I feel like I am not doing a good job of loving others, just really not as concerned about others as I should be, or willing to take a chance at being friendly as I should be. It is my biggest hurdle right now in my Christian walk. I am getting better with God, spending time in the Word, slowing down, taking quiet time and just being more patient...and sleeping more. The only thing is that in all this I am still very unsettled inside. It seems as if the world is out of order and there is not much I can do to get it back. I feel bad that I am not doing a better job of loving God, others and myself; but I am looking forward to the challenge of getting back to where God wants me to be.