VISION CCC

I really am wondering about the necessity of all of this stuff. The blog, the journal, the action Bible...it all is worthy, but when do I just "CHILL" with God? Now that I am eating healthy, sleeping pretty good, have a job with meaning, can somebody explain why I still feel "off"? Why am I not excited about going into CCC? Why am I so full of anger at night? I could never have imagined my life turning out this good, yet something just seems a little off.