DONUTS

I wonder why I go and do doughnuts. I know that it is a good, free way for me to get away, somewhat like retreat time, and just spend time with "adults". I know that it helps out those who are working the trailer. I know that my time there is good for Rob. I know that while it is hard work and makes for a difficult time getting somebody to hang out with my kids for those days, that I somewhat enjoy it. I just wonder if it is really helping God in any way. This is the last area of my life where I may be doing something just for money. And while I wouldn't do it if it cost me money to do, that I make money for doing it is surely a plus. I guess really the only problem is the kid thing. I know that the timing isn't great and that the kids really enjoy it, but I guess that it is better than during the school year. Does is serve you though? It is a way for me to use my service skills to reach others, but the kicker is that you never really know if that works. And really, I have not done a good job of serving others in the fact that most of my service is to the people coming to the trailer. I think it could be for God, but just like fasting, my focus was not there this time.